Farrah Abraham says that it was the porno she agreed to do with adult film star James Deen that “ruined” her life.

“It made it hard to have friends and a private life and to trust family, who I feel use me for money,” she told In Touch magazine. “If I went back in time, I would not have done it. The sex tape ruined my life.”

This is the first time Abraham has expressed regret about the video.

THIS ALL JUST MAKES ME SAD!